Monday, August 11, 2014

The Most Eccentric Person I Know




       Photograph by Ray Ng KT


Life is strange because we cannot predict what will happen in the following couple of minutes. Maybe life itself needs a strange person to cooperate, to construct an alluring scenery.

The questions are: What makes a person look eccentric? What is the definition of “unconventional behaviour”? Things that most of the people do are considered as convention. To be honest, it is not a fair phenomenon but it is really a mode that is embedded in everybody’s mind.

I do not know whether I should categorise him as the most eccentric person, but in the eyes of his classmates and friends, he is.

He is my best friend since I was a child. We lived in the same flat in our hometown. What a coincidence it is that we were born in the same year and on the same day. Furthermore, we were classmates throughout our study life. I always think that he is special because he has a dual personality. Most of the time, he is introverted, enjoys silence and prefers to be alone, whereas to a certain extent, he enjoys speaking and giving renditions.

I still remember when we were in primary school, in an art lesson, the teacher asked us to break some eggshells and paste them on a drawing paper in order to form a picture, and then coloured it. He used three weeks to complete that homework. Everyone was shocked when the teacher put his work on the board because he had smashed the eggshells into the tiny pieces. Of course, he got the highest mark for that piece of art.

When he was in secondary school, he used to wrap his things such as pencil case and calculator in plastic before put into his bag. According to him, he wanted his things to be preserved all the time. After his stuff getting older and older, he realised that nothing is immortal.

He and I went to Kuala Lumpur after Form Six to further our study in a college. Gradually, he spoke more in the class and became more silent while he was in his room. He stayed in a dormitory for four years until his graduation. During this period of time, he immersed himself into a sea of books. Every day he woke up at 5:30 a.m. to wash his clothes and clean himself up, I think he was the earliest resident in his level of dormitory. Different from others, his door was always closed and his shoes were kept inside the room because he believed that the room was his castle and things that out of his sight were not safe.

Although almost all of the students like to chat at mamak stalls at night, he was not on the fad. He only went out once a week for amusement like watching movies and shopping to release his pressure. Furthermore, he seldom went out with friends.

It is worth to be mentioning that his college individual projects were done by using typewriter, since he did not bring his computer to Kuala Lumpur. His lecturers and classmates were astonished. He was the only one who used an “antique” to produce the contemporary works.

Now and forever, I think he will be my best companion. He has been living deep inside of me. Every day I meet him in the mirror. When I comb my hair, he will comb his hair; when I grin at him, he will grin at me.


Mamak stalls: Food stalls that operated by Indians whose religion is Islam. Most of the stalls are at the road side and the business hours are usually until the time after midnight.

Thursday, July 10, 2014

世界杯足球赛收




嘘…… 赌球的,请别高调喧哗
也勿大惊小怪
足球    已粘连太多外来物质            笨拙
原本灵活的球            只有健康、友谊和荣耀
却要带上        赌风和卜基的干预
还有    商家、球迷和伪球迷的彩妆
竞技的旨趣仍在?
模糊    模糊    模糊
精彩绝伦的足球赛
莫过于            它的精神所在



 

“足球比赛本来应该很单纯,在加入许多额外的元素以后,它变得复杂起来;本来属于个别球员为国争光的一场比赛,在媒体商家球迷卜基的介入以后,它变得像一出肥皂剧,演的人越来越夸张,看的人也越来越紧张;而在激情过后,大概大家都会立刻忘记这些事情。”—— 林建文《球迷、伪球迷及卜基》
 

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

邪恶的




我的童年充满童话故事,投射在瞳孔里的世界总是缤纷夺目。长大后才晓得现实并不美,所以应该换个说法,儿时对于世界的想象,大部分是童话表面塑造出来罢了。

很多人都说现实是残酷的。活久了,我倒认为残酷的,是长大后才看清楚现实的模样,就像电影《Maleficient》里头,名叫Maleficient的精灵被情人Stefan背叛,失去双翼后,不再相信世上存有真爱;穷困的Stefan被贪婪欲望战胜爱情后,不相信世上有真爱。初生是一张白纸,涂写在纸上的是经历。活在仙境,纸不沾尘,单纯的信仰到底是该有的,抑或是世俗眼光里的“愚蠢”?惹尽尘埃之后,回不去洁净的原本面貌,却嘲讽洁净的他人,不自觉反嘲了当初的自己才是可悲。

倘若把人的成长阶段分为纯净与邪恶,把人的光面归类“纯净”,暗面归类“邪恶”,其实也蛮贴切。世人的标准:邪恶有多深,入世就有多深。人一旦染上“贪、嗔、痴、怨”,纯净的心灵将会被邪恶污染。Stefan的出现,把Maleficient慢慢地引向毁灭,他勾引了Maleficient的“痴”,并让她那份“痴”转化成“嗔”和“怨”,而Stefan本身饱受穷苦生活后,给“利”勾引出匿藏心中的“贪”,舍弃爱情。一念之间,精灵可沦为女巫,现实可歼灭真爱。

在想,到底有多少人会对“Maleficient”这个字眼产生好奇。我自认才疏学浅,所以又去打扰经常保持低调的不说话的老师。翻查《牛津高阶英汉双解词典》,并没找到“Maleficient”的踪迹,网上词典提供的中文意思是“邪恶的”、“有害的”。为了确认,我翻查了《新牛津英文词典》:“Malefic”,形容词,衍生字“Maleficent”(形容词)和“Maleficence”(名词),意为“能引起伤害或毁灭性的,特别是由超自然现象所引起的。”此字源自十七世纪中叶的拉丁文“Maleficus”,由“male”(“ill”之意)和“-ficus”(“doing”之意)组成。认识此字后,我觉得把它作为好精灵的名字确实很巧妙,巧妙地暗示正邪是共存一体的,“放下”才不会招惹邪恶。


现实是童话的黑暗面,是长大后重读童话故事所看见的一片黑森林,充满魑魅魍魉,真爱被淹埋在荆棘深处。或许我们永远都找不着真爱,因为我们可能太专注于爱情而错过了它的存在。



《星洲日报》< 星云 > ,2014年10月30日。